What It Means To Be Gay
I grew up in a household built on religious beliefs and values. A prayer before every meal, church every Sunday, sex is bad, drugs are bad, gay people are going to hell, etc. So I never even thought I could be gay. And then when I started to get better emotionally and began to be myself for once in my life, I started to notice feelings I had for friends of the same sex. At first I tried to tell myself it was only conditional and it didn’t apply to all girls, but the better I got, the more I was able to look into my past and see times where I should have seen that I was gay. So I slowly began to come out of the closet. At first I came out to friends of mine that I knew wouldn’t judge and they helped me grow as a person and realize that being gay was just a part of me and I shouldn’t try to hide it even though it is considered “wrong” in this society. So I tried coming out to one of my family members to test the waters. But I chickened out and went with the words, “might be” and “we will probably never have the chance to find out.” And wouldn’t you know it, a few days later I went on my first date with a girl I really liked. And I knew that night sitting in the movie theater holding this girl’s hand, that I really am gay. Well this girl soon became my girlfriend and even though I’m still not used to being openly gay, I show her off to the world. It’s still difficult for me to talk to some people about having a girlfriend, but the fact of the matter is I’m truly happy and I’m not going to sacrifice that in order to make the people who don’t agree with my decision happy.
Now, not to get into too many topics at once, but I swear this ties in. I don’t believe in organized religion because it is socially constructed. I do, however, believe in a God. And I believe that God created us all and that he knows our every thought, desire, dream, and future. So my question for you is why would He have created me to be gay if He is against homosexuality? Some people say that being gay is a choice but I wonder when you decided to be straight! Did you wake up one morning and say, I think I want to be straight? Why would anyone choose to be gay in a society that is completely against it? In my opinion, everybody falls in love with their true love regardless of sex. And I want to ask you to imagine for a second that roles are reversed. What if we lived in a world where being gay was the norm and heterosexuality was ostracized? Would you still want to be with the person you have already fallen in love with? I have brought this question up to several of my straight friends and they have all said they would still choose to be with the person they are with right now regardless of the consequences. So don’t homosexuals deserve the chance to be happy as well?
So for those of you trying to discover your sexuality, don’t do what society says is right, do what your heart is telling you. People will either accept you, or eventually get over it. And those who don’t, well are their opinions really worth it? Never be scared to be who you are for fear of being made fun of because at the end of your life, your happiness is what really matters.